So, many days I will open journals, old blogs, pick up old note pads and read my thoughts and can I tell you about 100% of the time, the Lord uses my old thoughts to shed light on a current situation.
I learn from the “past” Jenny on many occasions. For instance, I have a button listed “random” on my followmapenzi blog. If you click that button it will pull up any blog that I have written in the past three years. If you want to give it a try, you can visit that blog at: http://followmapenzi.tumblr.com
Anyways, so I clicked that button today and it brought me to December 16, 2012, titled: “2013 Commitment”
I would like to share with you what I wrote:
“To live close to the Lord it requires Him to be my first love, to be my TOP priority. Isaiah 50:4 reads, “The Sovereign Lord has given me an instructed tongue, to know the word that sustains the weary. He wakens me morning by morning, wakens my ear to listen like one being taught.”
Everyday I learn more about my God through the people around me, the nature I walk by and through the deep breaths I take. I learn that I am not alone and my love for Jesus continues to grow.
So, how can I strive to follow Jesus and not the world? How can someone look at me and know I am a Christ Follower? If I were to compare my life to the life of an atheist, do I stand out? Can people tell I am different? How can I share the love of Christ everyday?
To answer these questions. I sat down. I grabbed a pen and a paper. Naturally I began to write my 2013 goals. In the midst of writing these goals, I realized this is more than just 2013. Our life is made of moments and decisions. When I look back and reflect on these moments, I want to know that it was more than just “yearly goals after yearly goals.” I want to STAND out of the crowd. I want to challenge others. I want to share Christ love to everyone I come in contact with. I want to respect my body, guard my mind and keep a pure soul. I want to be different.
Being different is difficult in the world we live in, but this is the step I need and want to take. Instead of just writing goals, I also wrote a Life commitment. I believe goals are essential, so keep daily, weekly, and yearly goals, but also dig deeper, take time to think a little longer and write a commitment between you and the Lord.
I hope 2013 brings much happiness and joy, but I also will pray that it brings much GROWTH with you and the Lord.
Take the journey to be different. Let people see the change in your life and start spreading Christ love one soul at a time.”
I opened up another journal I had written in about a year ago and it had said:
“Our choice is either to trust our plans with all of our heart or Trust our God.”
So, can you guess what I have been struggling with lately?
Making the Lord my top priority and giving Him all control of my life. I still have to daily work at surrendering my plans to the Lord and understanding that He calls me to be different and He has amazing plans for my life.
So, like I said in 2012… I am going to take the journey to be different. I am going to let people see the change in my life and continue to spread Christ love one soul at a time. I am choosing to Trust God and surrender my plans.
Want to join me?